What makes this work unique is its structure. Each volume is built from long-form poetry, procedural records, authority statements, interludes, and system audits. The poems document what it felt like to live inside these conditions. The records explain what was happening while those feelings were occurring. Interludes step away from the author entirely to analyze addiction, power, silence, relief, and survival as concepts, not confessions. Throughout the series, the internal “demons” are not symbolic flourishes. They are distinct authorities with consistent functions, jurisdictions, and influence…all active at all times, regardless of which volume is in focus.
This is not a recovery book. It does not sell hope, motivation, or absolution. It does not ask the reader to agree with the author’s choices. It asks them to understand the sophistication of the internal logic behind those choices, and to confront the uncomfortable reality that under the same conditions, with the same pressures, those choices may not have looked irrational at all.
The Gospel According to My Demons is a testimony without absolution.
A psychological record written in poetry.
A system laid bare.
Not to be healed…but to be understood.
A SIX VOLUME AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF INTERNAL AUTHORITY
The Gospel According to My Demons is a six-volume autobiographical work that documents a mind operating under sustained pressure, contradiction, and multiplicity. It is not a memoir in the traditional sense. It does not move chronologically, seek sympathy, or reduce experience to lessons. Instead, it records life as it was actually lived internally…through competing authorities, parallel thought streams, and voices that did not appear as metaphors after the fact, but existed as governing forces long before the events they would later influence.
This project treats addiction, mental illness, incarceration, exile, and spiritual conflict not as isolated problems, but as interacting systems. Drugs are not framed as moral failure or rebellion, but as functional tools that entered a mind already optimized for survival. Schizophrenia is not presented as spectacle or collapse, but as a high-bandwidth cognitive state that produces both heightened perception and relentless internal negotiation. Prison is not redemption theater…it is examined as an institution that extends its sentence inward and permanently alters decision-making architecture.
VOLUME I - THE GOSPEL OF RELIEF
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This volume documents the moment relief becomes admissible.
Not as pleasure.
Not as rebellion.
But as function.
The Gospel of Relief examines addiction before it looks like addiction…when substances are not used to escape life, but to make life operable. This is not the story of chasing highs. It is the record of a system under sustained pressure discovering that reduction is possible, and then having to live with that knowledge.
Through long-form poetry, procedural records, and system audits, this volume dissects how relief earns jurisdiction inside an intelligent, morally aware mind. It shows how endurance loses its monopoly, how repetition begins without panic, and how addiction is built quietly, rationally, and without drama.
This book does not ask for sympathy.
It asks the reader to understand how logic, not weakness, opens the door.
VOLUME II - THE GOSPEL OF THE UNQUIET MIND
The Gospel of the Unquiet Mind explores schizophrenia not as spectacle or collapse, but as structure. Thought arrives in parallel. Patterns surface before language can catch them. Perception outpaces explanation. Silence is never empty…it is crowded.
Rather than framing mental illness as a defect to be corrected, this volume documents what it means to live responsibly inside constant cognitive multiplicity. It shows how heightened intuition becomes both asset and liability, how insight precedes social permission, and how existing in two worlds simultaneously creates permanent misalignment with the visible one.
This is not a breakdown narrative.
It is a field study of a mind operating at full bandwidth.
VOLUME III - THE GOSPEL OF THE EXILE
This volume is about refusal.
Not rebellion for rebellion’s sake, but the withdrawal of allegiance from systems that enforce rules asymmetrically and punish perception more harshly than exploitation.
The Gospel of Exile chronicles the gradual shift from attempted compliance to deliberate separation. It examines what happens when belonging requires submission, when moral frameworks betray the people who live by them, and when respect is only granted after hardness replaces openness.
This volume reframes the outsider not as someone cast out, but as someone who stepped away. Exile becomes identity. Loneliness becomes strategy. And isolation stops being a wound and starts becoming a position.
VOLUME IV - THE GOSPEL OF THE SENTENCE
This volume documents punishment that outlives the cell.
The Gospel of the Sentence examines incarceration as an institution of time, not correction. It shows how prison does not reform behavior, but refines survival logic, hardens identity, and moves its walls inward.
Through poetry and record, this volume explores how institutional thinking embeds itself into the mind, how consequence fails to produce change, and how release does not restore freedom when the sentence has already been internalized.
This is not a redemption story.
It is an anatomy of permanence.
VOLUME V - THE GOSPEL OF WAR
This volume is where everything collides.
The Gospel of the War documents internal conflict at full scale…addiction escalation, mental fracture, spiritual confrontation, and the moment survival becomes uncertain. This is not metaphorical warfare. It is lived.
Here, demons no longer negotiate quietly. Jurisdictions overlap. Authority fractures. The abyss presses its logic. Extremes dominate. Silence becomes dangerous. And God appears not as comfort, but as force…intervening without erasing consequence.
This volume does not sanitize collapse.
It records what it costs to survive it.
VOLUME VI - THE GOSPEL OF THE RECKONING
This volume is about what comes after survival.
The Gospel of the Reckoning rejects closure, healing narratives, and absolution. It examines what it means to live after intervention without pretending the past no longer matters. Hands remain stained. Memory remains intact. Responsibility does not dissolve.
Rather than offering peace, this volume documents appointment…being tasked to stand, speak, and carry truth forward without illusion. The war does not end. It changes form. The system remains populated. The work continues.
This is not salvation.
It is continuation.